Sick Day

* I'm taking a sick day today *

I am in bed, and not feeling well. I make the rules, so I say this is ok. If you have a problem, than too bad! pfffffffffftttt

International No Diet Day

Today , I celebrated "International No Diet Day", mainly because I was feeling extremely depressed about my job and the fact I was suspended again. I felt the urge to just eat bad things. This day was established in 1992 by Mary Evans Young (pictured below), the director of the British anti-diet campaign Diet Breakers.

Today, I ate two cookies from Costco for breakfast. I ate McDonalds for lunch, (a chicken burger, fries and a Sprite)  and I had a donut from Tim Hortons, and a coke for a snack.  For dinner, I ate a hamburger that we made at home. And for dessert, I ate vanilla ice cream with cinnamon. 

WOW.  Imagine how many people eat like this every day? ..... I couldn't do it. I feel disgusting. I normally eat quite good. I don't diet, but I do watch my calories and consumption a much as I can. 

I think I went a little over board, don't you?

Mary, a recovered anorexic, is the author of a best-selling book in Britain titled Diet Breaking: Having It All Without Having To Diet (Hodder & Stoughton, 1995). Here is the story of how INDD was born, in Mary's own words:

"I started INDD in the spring of '92 following two things. The first was seeing a television programme where women were having their stomachs stapled. One woman had split the staples and was in for her third op[eration]. And then a young girl of 15 committed suicide because 'she couldn't cope being fat.' She was size 14 (12 in US). I decided somebody had to stand up and try to stop this bloody madness and in the absence of anybody else, I decided it would be me. So I sent out a press release titled 'Fat Woman Bites Back'...and got some media attention. I was desperate to keep the anti-diet/size acceptance concept in the public eye. So, without really thinking about it, at the end of a live TV interview I said, 'Don't forget to celebrate No Diet Day.' ...Having declared it on prime time national TV I then set about organising a picnic in Hyde Park. Alas it rained, so we adjourned to my living room instead."

From a picnic in Mary's living room, International No Diet Day has spread around the globe. Since 1993, INDD has been celebrated in Australia, Canada, England, Germany, New Zealand, Norway, Russia, South Africa, across the United States and in many other locations around the world.

oops.. it was Cinco De Mayo...

Today is the first time I haven't celebrated Cinco De Mayo.  Instead, I unpacked my apartment, while Matt was at a playoff hockey game. I didn't feel like going out and doing anything else.  It's usually just a good day to drink tequila and go out with friends, but today, all I wanted to do was stay home and ORGANIZE.  Incase you don't know what Cinco De Mayo is, read this article below I found here

as it explains it very well! 

In gratitude, thousands of Mexicans crossed the border after Pearl Harbor to join the U.S. Armed Forces. As recently as the Persian Gulf War, Mexicans flooded American consulates with phone calls, trying to join up and fight another war for America.

Mexicans, you see, never forget who their friends are, and neither do Americans. That's why Cinco de Mayo is such a party -- A party that celebrates freedom and liberty. There are two ideals which Mexicans and Americans have fought shoulder to shoulder to protect, ever since the 5th of May, 1862. VIVA! el CINCO DE MAYO!!

I missed out...   Today, was not a good first day...

...it's like living in a hotel....

This is the first time in my life I feel like I live in a hotel (but in a good way) . The lobby is beautiful, with modern furniture and art work. The ceilings are VERY high, and you have a view of the pool and amenities as you walk past the 24 hour concierge.

Yes, we have a concierge. What a fancy word! A concierge is an employee who lives on the premises of an apartment building or a hotel and serves as a general property caretaker with duties similar to janitor. Ha! Concierge sounds far better than a janitor, that's for sure! I feel very safe in our building and don't need to worry about burglars or crazies digging through our garbage in the back yard. 

We have an amazing fitness area, with elliptical trainers, bicycles, treadmills, weights, yoga supplies, a t.v. to pass the time and pretty everything you could possible need to get in shape. Sadly, I haven't used the facilities yet; but, this in the plans for near future! The gym over looks the 25 meter pool, hottub, sauna and steam room which you can kind of see in the photo?

If this doesn't seem like a hotel yet, I don't know what will? I think it's luxury, and I feel like a bit of a princess living here.

Here's the pool! It's warm, and 25 meter in length, which means I can start swimming laps more often. its been so long since I've done that! I will surely get into shape, and really have no excuse to have a belly, and flabby arms and a saggy butt. lol.

Doesn't the pool look refreshing ? It's quite shallow all the way around, so there is no diving. But, who cares. I have a 25 meter pool in my basement!

HOW CAN I REALLY COMPLAIN about life right now? Life is sweet.

I hate my blog

Today is the first day I truly hate my blog. I don't want to do it anymore. I hate it, and hate thinking of new things everyday to do or try. Wow. I never thought it would come to this, but I don't want to do it. Maybe it's because I have my monthly "friend" , and I just need some chocolate? :)  or ice cream .... or the combination of both.

Please someone give me some ideas?! I'm running out of ideas, and I'm only a third of the way through the year.. how am i going to do 365 days of this? aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Psychoanalytic views

In psychoanalysis, Sigmund Freud defined hate as an ego state that wishes to destroy the source of its unhappiness. More recently, the Penguin Dictionary of Psychology defines hate as a "deep, enduring, intense emotion expressing animosity, anger, and hostility towards a person, group, or object."Because hatred is believed to be long-lasting, many psychologists consider it to be more of an attitude or disposition than a temporary emotional state.

[edit]Neurological research

The neural correlates of hate have been investigated with an fMRI procedure. In this experiment, people had their brains scanned while viewing pictures of people they hated. The results showed increased activity in the medial frontal gyrus, right putamen, bilaterally in the premotor cortex, in the frontal pole, and bilaterally in the medial insula of the human brain. The researchers concluded that there is a distinct pattern of brain activity that occurs when people are experiencing hatred.


HATE. It's probably too strong a word for what i'm experiencing today. But, I'm worried that I won't be able to finish what I started  :(  This is a big pattern in my life. 

Tim Hortons (ARK)

Today, I was wearing my ARK tshirt, and I was having a pretty terrible day. Nothing happened that was bad necessarily, I was just overall in a very crummy mood. And, I wasn't choosing to make myself happy, but dwelling in the unhappiness of my day. I do this sometimes. It's kind of sad.

Anyways, a guy was about to pay for a $2.00 coffee at Tim Hortons in front of me, with a $20.00 bill. This particular Tim Hortons was a very small one inside a gas station, so the teller asked the man if he had any smaller change? He said no, and the teller asked him if he wouldn't mind getting change from other teller at the gas station. He seemed annoyed, and instantly without thinking, I took out a toonie and said, "don't worry about it, I'll buy your coffee today!" the guy said "no, no!" and I insisted. He thanked me and I told him to "pay it forward". He looked at me weirdly after this, and took off quite quickly.

Maybe he didn't know what I meant, by "pay it forward"? If you haven't seen the movie "Pay It Forward" I HIGHLY HIGHLY HIGHLY recommend it. It's about a 12-year-old boy who is in grade school. His social studies teacher Eugene Simonet (Spacey) gives the class an assignment to devise and put into action a plan that will change the world for the better. Trevor calls his plan "pay it forward", which can be described as a charitable pyramid scheme, based on good deeds rather than profit. "Paying it forward" means the recipient of a favor does a favor for a third party rather than paying the favor back. It's an amazing concept, and I think more people should live their lives with this in mind.

anyways, buy someone a coffee or offer to pay for someone's food if they don't have the money. It makes you feel good, and  my day brightened almost instantly after that. It doesn't take much to make your day, and someone else's a little bit brighter. Try it today!

First Day in new place! :)